Tori’s Thoughts

Mumbled, Jumbled, and sometimes Crazy!

Another Birthday July 21, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — Shawn Ragan @ 4:41 pm

Yep, 31 today.  Wow… I don’t think I feel 31.  I am not really sure how 31 should feel…mmm

Last year was hard, turning 30 really freaked me out.  I am not freaked out by 31, just unsettled.

I have spent this last year really trying to LIVE… What does this mean??? Well, I really wanted to start being and living in the right here and now.  I want to be truly present and intentional about living.  I don’t want to stress and worry about the small and insignificant.   I want to be truly happy with and in what I have.  I want to be enjoying and experiencing things as much as possible.

This was a totally new way of thinking for me.  I think so many times we get caught up in things and don’t take time to slow down and really LIVE.  I have not put this into every day as much as I wish to.  I still get caught up in things.  I hope to at least have more of an awareness now, so I can slow down and focus on what really matters.

So, another birthday, and another year to have the opportunity to enjoy and edure, to grow in our struggles and our accomplishments.  To be inspired and to inspire.  To aspire to truly LIVE.


This is what is new July 13, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — Shawn Ragan @ 7:25 am

Well, it has been a whirlwind of a week.  We had been waiting, and hoping to hear good news about the job Shawn applied for.  He has applied for a ton over the last little bit, but this is the one we really wanted… Well the answer was no.  Yes, even as adults we sometimes face the answer being no.  Ok, so I was really mad, disappointed, and a little freaked out.  We have stretched our budget and were doing fine through the end of the month, but for this to work Shawn needed to be working by Monday.  We got the no on Friday.  Shawn pulled things together and made some calls.. thinking even if he could get some day by day work, he called a friend who owns an electrician company.  He said he would hire him and give him a job as long as he wanted….. So although unexpected, and for the time being a substantial cut in pay, this is a job on Monday.  This job has opportunity for moving up if we choose to pursue it, it provides evenings and weekends off….. Something Shawn has not had in over eight years.  So although this is not the path we thought, this is the one we are on.

On a different note, my boys left for Summer Camp on Saturday.  They were both sooo excited.  I am sure they will have many adventures to tell of.  They will be gone a week, they just left Yesterday and I already miss them.:(  Ellie and I will have to find things to keep ourselves busy this week!


The Sword July 2, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — Shawn Ragan @ 7:43 am

As most of you know, our time at our church and job for the last 8 years is over.  This has been a process and a decision made a while back.  Recently, Shawn received a present from an anonymous source… A Sword.  A big, real, medieval, sword.  It took me aback at how symbolic this really was.  Our last 8 years have been a time of great growth and accomplishment, and with this I am finding most of the time comes great struggle, and down times, (The Battle).  We are now moving on to the next phase in our lives.  We have decided it is time for Shawn to go back to school and finish his degree.  In our reality, he will also be working full time, and be a full time father and husband.(Our future Battle)  I believe life has great things in store for our family.  I am very aware it will be hard work and we will face some struggles.  That is what will make the victories so sweet.